Train rattles on its tracks
Packed to rafters
As silhouetted buildings fly past
And I stand uneasy
Jostled with a steel bar in my hand
And I can’t find balance
Shift on my feet as turns complete
Bag on my arm got my shoulder tweaked
Then the brakes engage wheels start to shriek
By blood or bone I still need an answer
Before I errode in the blasting wind
Since all my options are closing in
I’m impatiently wasting my ligaments
So I step from the from the car to the station
And start pacing alongside crowds
That seek out new lines sprawling out
Cross districts and towns in the endless lights and sounds
Crowned by skyscrapers rising

Glass windows shine burning nuclear fire in the night
The nexus flex its might
As cargo ships by the fleet arrive
Alongside tankers with precise movements
That bring in the city’s black blood transfusions
Neon lights like fireworks bloom
Over speakers and storefronts blaring music
Overpasses coil like snakes
Traffic rush ground starts to shake
Taxis and trucks with heavy freight
On concrete veins as they circulate
I walk on the roads
As they split and change
Capillaries side streets alleyways
Through cigarette smoke in a drifting haze
And charcoal grills set fresh ablaze

Bars and shrines both dodge development
Dead ends collect the city's sediment
Gutters expose the soul and skeleton
While odd shops drift towards corners and settle in
Between old homes worn down by time
With clothes hung out on lines to dry
Junked bikes locked up in the yard
Stand guard as families are born and die
I’m trying to fade away
Then find a way for my veins and bank card both to drain
Final resting place
In these buildings built on buildings built on graves
Vain hopes that I’ve humoured
Doubts grow like tumors
Consume the flesh until all that’s left
Is absolute truth wasted future

Double check the room then check out
From the guest house make sure I’m erased
Each trace packed away in my bag
Nothing left of myself then I'm up and I step out.
I feel the wilds encroaching
Dark themes in my thoughts exposed
On moss covered steps draw each breath slow
Won’t turn back don’t know where I’m going
Don’t care just put this world behind me
No rhyme no reason just flee society
No one left to stand beside me
I don’t need shit if I can’t provide it
Violence tides break through the dam
Walk between trees see burning ash
Inhale pure air like sarin gas
Black heart bastard that I can’t move past

Then the moment pass I’m so small so scared
My rage is a speck of dust in the air
So weak and selfish all hell laid bare
No part of the strength that I seek is spared
I only want to feel safe
These causes I bled for hang by a thread
Any day the balance could break
Then its castles of sand again
Washed away by capricious rain
That is unless I can do it first
With these two hands
To unmake these delusions and plans
Is the fate that I prefer
Might burn but I won’t succumb to the curse
So purposeless and this struggle senseless
My dignity deeply infected
Fuck life’s illusion I rejected
I’ll cause the end if I can’t prevent it