Call Me Out

from Self Effacer by Quote

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lyrics

Call Me Out

I was sneaking past the churchgoers as they sang
And I’d already had a couple before you rang
I’m setting up to go out with a bang
And it’ll hurt
I hope somebody stops me first

I was hiding in a crowd as is my way
People only listen when you’ve got nothing to say
So I try to oblige them
I’m keen to entertain
But it don’t feel right
So I end up going quiet

When we all talk at once I just get bored
So I tilt my glass and slide right out the door
And while I’m walking around the yard I might have a couple more
As the wind picks up
And my fingers go numb

I rattle like a stone in an empty tin
And I’m hollow but I might be caving in
Because no matter how I tell it it still seems that I can’t win
Might just be me
In fact I’m sure I’m my worst enemy

So call me out
Call me out tonight
It’s hard when no one’s looking to pretend that I’m alright
I’ll settle for your pity
If it means that you care
So call me out and you know you’ll see me there

Some nights I’m a sandbag
That’s holding back a flood
Other nights I’m wasted but I write it off as luck
Tonight I’m as innocuous as the poison in my blood
And I could be gone
It wouldn’t have to last this long

I really only want to get away
I wish liquor did the things that people say
But It’s just another culprit in a cycle of self blame
And I don’t care
So if you want you can meet me there

I’ve got a way to act out these disasters
And it might be real but I play it up for the cameras
Because I’m a mess and it hurts that it doesn’t matter
In the long run
To you or me or anyone